I realized , stupidly enough , after a span of 25 years, that my mom was right. She had always told me that i was overconfident. For me the word "over-confident" meant that i was probably a guy who was a lil too intimidating and "show-off"-y in terms of how i projected myself around people . I did not think that that word applied to me , for the same reason, and i hence assumed that my mom was just venting some of her anger on me by using arbitrary words. But it seems that , as it always did , my interpretation of the language (or my intelligence) failed me. I had an epiphany recently , where i realized that i am a person who never likes to climb the stairs. I always want the elevators ( Sachin Tendulkar could do that according to Vinod Kambli . But facts show that Sachin climbed the stairs too...). I couldnt take the process of learning something in the most humble manner possible. Even before i could solve a simple problem , i would start going after complex ones. I still do not realize what that is. Even today, inspite of knowing this for a fact , my mind is usually driven towards newer /more exciting things , where i eventually end up losing interest (reasons unknown).
One could call this laziness/ impatience / just escapism due to frustration . Or it could be something more. I am not sure about how i can find a solution to this . The most straightforward solution being attempted right now is called " working my ass off " . Even thats hard to do if you've been lazy for more than a decade.
Amen.
One could call this laziness/ impatience / just escapism due to frustration . Or it could be something more. I am not sure about how i can find a solution to this . The most straightforward solution being attempted right now is called " working my ass off " . Even thats hard to do if you've been lazy for more than a decade.
Amen.